Goodbye Little One!

I am saying good bye to the tiny little life that spent just eight weeks with me. I was so excited when I know your existence! You are a dream come true. If you are still around, I would be happily welcoming you in December! You will be my my Christmas gift and during your first month birthday, you will be my 40 years old birthday gift! What a perfect timing my little one if you are still around...

I am sorry I took you for granted! So confidence you would be safe and secure in me irregardless of what I would eat and do. I was so confident that you are God's perfect gift to me before I turn 40! But I was wrong... He gave, and He took away... Yet  my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name!

I don't understand why our Father would take you away from me? Why I never get to see you face to face? So many were praying you would be resurrected before Easter! But God didn't do so... Your heart had stopped beating... In a strange way, I have peace that you are safe in His hands even if you have just live one day in me... He kind of revealed to me through the passage below... Even one day in me you had a purpose... Only He knows and I pray He reveals ...

Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day. 
http://bible.us/Ps139.16.MSG

"He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him."
Romans 8:27-29 Message

So I say Goodbye little one, our Father knows and plans for the best for both of us to be separated at this point.... But nothing can separate us from His love! I will see you again, one day little one, one day... Remember you are already loved by your Daddy, Mummy, and your two elder sisters. 

Goodbye, Mummy loves you! And I will miss you!